It can be frustrating when I am unable to fulfill all my "responsibilities". This time of year, especially, a mommy and/or grand-mommy needs:
Yes! I am an oldest child! Not only am I the oldest, but I was an only child for several years. I was preparing for first grade before my brother, the second child, came along. Yes! I do feel responsible! Responsibility is deeply engraved in my psyche. If I don't meet my "responsibilities" real or imagined, then "guilt" raises its ugly head.
- a deep reservoir of God's Spirit
- extra Physical energy
- clarity of Intellect (mind)
- understanding/supportive Relationships, and
- normalcy of Emotions.
Why? Well, haven't you heard? It's the Hectic Holiday season!
The weather here where I live has been torrential rain. I have tendonitis in my leg. My leg is not only very painful, but it is slowing me down considerably. Yesterday, I needed to drive many miles to visit school sites. I needed my hubby to drive me around. I have relied on him for much. Thank you, Steve! Thank You, Jesus!
I have not purchased one gift. Yet, our daughter has stepped in with her "cyber savvy" and taken care of it all. Each year we do the 12 days of Christmas countdown to Christmas. Last night, with my leg propped up I realized that the 12 gifts for each grandkids box were almost complete. Thank you, Jess! Thank You, Jesus!
I want this month to transform into something extra special... peaceful... loving.... memorable... It must start with me giving up control! I have certainly battled feelings of frustration. It's okay that I do not "get everything done". If it's "late" - that's okay! Usually we have our tree up by now. Not one Christmas decoration is up... and our prayer is that we'll have all the grandkids here to celebrate at the end of the month.
BREATHE, PATTI! God is IN control! In fact, I need God IN me calming my Spirit 24/7. I need help for my NEEDS that I bulleted above!
IN-SPIRE means to actually have the "breath of God". BREATHE GOD, PATTI!
IN me is God who provides:
S - piritual transformation for the following:
P - hysical
I - ntellectual
R - elational
E - motional